Friday, January 18, 2013

Perspective

Y’know all those projects that have been laying around?  Most of them for years?  I felt such a pull this year to get them done.  All of them.  Now!  And as the year rolled along, I got more and more frantic about it all.  I finally realized that it was that Mayan calendar coming to a close, and I was trying to finish it all up before it ended.  So I could start this new cycle fresh.  Unburdened.  Free.

I got so much done this year!  And I have a really good handle on how to knock out the rest it.  As this amazing, last year slips through my fingers and comes to a close, I am excited to spend a few minutes on something a little more cerebral.  I can’t help but reflect on last year’s resolutions and think of what I will identify as this year’s.  Health, wealth and happiness.  Isn’t that the standard?

My health is good.  I try to eat pretty healthy and have gone organic and/or local with a lot more things.  If I am gonna eat crap, I try to do it early in the day and make sure it’s really good crap.  I have been implementing exercise that I will actually do and enjoy, like bowling, swimming and horseback riding.  I take time for me and I sleep a lot when I’m not working.   I am finally scheduling with regularity the body and energy work that I need.

Wealth is gonna have to wait.  I am still trying to get a handle on the day to day… but getting there, little by little, which, as I understand it, is really the only way.

Happiness.  I was just talking to a happy woman in line at McDonald’s this morning about how happiness is a choice and something that we have to work on every day, like anything else.  It’s a matter of rethinking perspective, finding (no matter how hard you have to look) that silver lining/ the positive side, talking to and liking yourself, smiling, and the willingness to do the work.      

I spent yesterday on the couch watching an endless Law & Order SVU marathon.  These TV shows are my stabilizers, my attitude adjustment, my perspective.  Today, I did not get raped, mugged, stabbed, shot, have chemo, my husband cheat on me, or come out of the closet, car wrecked, job lost, death in the family, etc.  And even on days when those things do happen, is there not a silver lining somewhere in there? 

There has to be, for me anyway.  There has to be a reason bad things happen…  Hey, I think someone even wrote that book.  Maybe there was someone I was supposed to meet, something I was supposed to learn, the acknowledgement of how much worse it could have been/ how blessed I really am.  Because the option is so dark, angry, bitter… to just see the bad/evil/ugly in everything around… that just does not seem like a good way to live.  When I have the option, the choice, to see things with a rosy tint, why would I not go there?